Wow, it’s been a long time since I’ve done a real post. And right now, I’m trying desperately to cool off from my first 6 mile run, so I seem to have plenty of time to sit up in my desk chair and type. I am only using my fingers and not getting any furniture sweaty. And, I did not run the whole thing. Probably just 70%. Nonetheless, I feel pretty good about it. It took 1 hour and 10 min in case you were wondering.
I feel like I constantly have things to blog about, but lack the real time to sit and do so. Even now, laundry is waiting to be folded, dishes to be put away, and giggly little girls to be played with. But, I do have a few things I want to put here so the future me can go back and read it someday.
God has been changing my heart so much over the past year and a half I don’t even know really how to put it into words. We (God and I) talk about it a lot. Change that is. In me, in life. And the thing I seem to be getting most out of our conversations is “Be Where You Are”. Terry shared that line with me, and I would love to give props to it’s orignator, but I cannot remember for the life of me who it was.
For so much of my life, I have always looked forward to the next step. Graduation from high school, college, getting married, buying our first home, getting pregnant, then getting pregnant again…like little notches in the belt of life. When one goal was attained I began wondering what was next and when it would happen. I rarely just enjoyed where I was in that moment.
This was especially true when I didn’t like something about my life. Take the counter tops in the house in Corinth. (Ok, I know this seems petty, but it’s just one example.) HATED THEM. I couldn’t wait to move into a new house with better stuff. Granite was preferable really. And then God finally moved us. To downtown Dallas. I had granite alright, but my friends lived (what I considered at the time) crazy far away. And gas was like 2.75, so I didn’t have a dime to spare. Ha ha.
I had no idea how good I had it when every one of my best friends live within a mile radius. I had a tribe (as my friend Anne would call it) who I relied on when Terry was out of town or for anything that would pop up really. We all attended the same church and our kids were the same age. It was glorious, but I was too busy looking online at houses to really appreciate it.
So, here I sit in Oklahoma. I am much farther away from my friends and family than I thought I would be. I’ve gone back to work. And, still I have to keep myself from wondering what is next. Will we move again? Farther away? Will I get to stay home again some day if we do?
And quietly, God reminds me, “Be where you are. Enjoy the blessings of right now. Do not worry about tomorrow; it may not even exist.”
So, for now, I will enjoy the summer with the girls and Terry. Late evenings playing outside and having dinner with new friends. I will enjoy long daily conversations with my Dallas tribe, and trips to see them!
And God. I will enjoy Him and what he has to teach me while we are here for however long we get to stay.
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